My self-esteem has been a bit on the rocky side lately. Mainly because I am not loosing weight the way I want to. I can't blame it on anyone or anything besides my constant cravings for bread, cheese and loads of nuts. I have realized that my nature is being a fat person. I am just happy that I am married to Björn, a man who doesn't eat candy, coffee bread or unhealthy stuff, except maybe once a month when he stuffs himself with a bag of chips in like 15 minutes. I am lucky he is not a feeder, I would have happily opened my mouth for anything delicious. Anyway, my confidence is slowly coming back. Fuck my weight, I really do not have the energy to focus on my calorie intake anyway. Honestly, It would be great to loose lots of weight before Ironman but at the same time I really have to focus on my growing family, training and work. Bjorn says that my only problems is the loads of bread I eat everyday. So my new test is, no bread until I go to Mallorca in 3 weeks for my training camp. If I cheat he gets to buy a new bike. Thats a pretty good deal, cause he has been on my case constantly wanting to buy new bikes before Ironman, and I constantly say no. Not until we have completed our first Ironman and know this is what we want to do.
Anyway, I did a 16K run yesterday and I felt strong. I still have a ways to go before I can complete Stockholm Marathon, I need to have the energy and strength to do 25K without to much pain. I only have 4 weeks left before my first race, Lubbenau Half Marathon in Germany. I guess that race will be my first test for the season. Then I really want to start outdoor biking. I am just waiting for my new tires to arrive. I am so tired of having my bike in the living room and not being outside to view and smell the surrounding.
Yesterday was a fun day for several reasons. Started out with a 4,5 hour swim analysis with Mikael Rosén, one of Swedens top outdoor swimmers. We were a group of 8 or 9. All of us with different athletic goals but with the ambition of becoming better swimmers. We had a celebrity onboard as well. Petter Alexis a Swedish rapper. His goal is to do one of the toughest races in Sweden, a swim-run (Ö till Ö) We had a deal during our analysis, "what is said in this room stays in this room", so I can't give you any gossip, however Petter did have the coolest back tattoo ever.
Mikael gave me 3 things I have to work on. My armstroke, my breathing and my glide. He gave me this awful drill, called Delmont. I think he is trying to drown me because that what happens every time I try it. So Delmont it is, every single time I swim. I will get it ... eventually.
Well Tuesday is my last Spinning lesson and then my final tryout on April 4th. So keep you fingers crossed.
Just before my 16.32K run yesterday, after I got my mindset straight I did a really good job
Happy is always teasing me about my selfies, she thinks old people should be more mature. I guess I am to old but WTF, I like selfies.. hahahahaha
Happy and I goofing off
Seriously
Stop putting your fingers in my face!
Our famous rapper Petter is the guy in the Beige coat. I took this picture before I knew it was him (Starstruck? not really, maybe alittle...I have seen him almost naked)
Saturday night dinner
This is driving me crazy, he is on the bike now as I write. The trainer sounds like a broken vacuum cleaner and Björns is grunting like its the last minute in his life. I just hope those damn tires arrive soon, I can barely handle it. Soon its my turn for a 2 hour session... urgh
