What are my plans for 2014?

We are already at the end of February, and this is my year. I embrace every single day feeling.... happy. This is the year I turn 50 as well, and I can't make up my mind if I should have a party, or if I should simply just travel somewhere? I luv to party, and I love to travel, so I really need some help on this one.

Not only do I turn 50, this is the year of my largest and most demanding athletic goals ever. Its like, why did I wait until 50? I love these challenges, I love endurance sports and I love the fact that my body is strong. Strong enough I hope... :-) I can't regret what I didn't do earlier in life, but I can try to live a long life with new goals and adventures. Is easy to think "why didn't I do this earlier...." But I try to remember that we change, conditions change and we never know what we want tomorrow. I guess that is one of the funs things about life, you never know whats around the corner. And never ever say never

So whats happening 2014? When I look at the list, I feel kind of crazy, proud, and really good about myself. I might not be able to go through with all the challenges. I might catch a cold, hurt myself or other things happen in my life beyond my control. But I am on the boat, airplane, train... whatever you want to call it, and I feel gooooood. One thing I never thought about before, is that I am spending so much money. This sport is expensive, and I am spending it on killing myself, I think or.... I decided to live by the saying : What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

So what are my planned activities?

April
Lûbbenau Half marathon in Germany
May
Stockholm Marathon - I might not run the full distance. Most important is, that I listen to by body so I don't hurt myself and miss my Ironman competitions
June
Vansbro Triathlon, a half ironman (Huge challenge)
July
No competition
August
Kalmar - Ironman (The challenge)
September
Stockholm - Half Marathon
November
Tunnel loppet

Here are the pics that kinda fit me, my challenge and my mentality:


What ever my results are at the end of this year, I never believed that I could do this journey, and know I am doing it.

Kind a funny, Feel like I could bench press a car. I am stronger than ever.

Love this one, its me

This is something I live by everyday. Everyone has to deal with tough situations/issues, but to stay strong and do what you can to get back on track, is something I truly respect.

An example of my two week schedule. It you want to know more, follow me on Funbeat.

A feeling of content

Sunday evening, and I am sitting in front of my Mac, reflecting on the week that has passed and the week to come. Its been a good week and I am feeling quite good about myself. I have followed this weeks training program, and it has been very awarding. I have had lots of running this week, and my 80 minute run today was a bit of a challenge. Didn't feel like running. But I kicked my own ass out of the house with a little help from my husband and Krister, (a friend on Funbeat, Twitter and Instagram, also doing Ironman 2014). My body has been good to me, and It feels like I have found a flow. I have lost 4,5 kilos (around 10 pounds) and I hope to lose about 10 kilos more (22 pounds). Not that I feel bad about myself, just don't want to carry excess weight during my Ironman challenge. However..... I have had 3 pretty bad food days, one with chocolate, one with cheese and one with candy. But today is a new day and I'll just continue where I left off. I'll be fine. No stress.

I received an email Friday, my Gym asking me if I wanted to participate in the spinning course. I have 3, 90 minute sessions in march and than a new try-out in April. So I just have to give it my best. At least they think I am inspiring... Thats what the email said anyway. And we are 11 participants that they want to give an extra chance.

Next week is going to be a challenge, I have hell week at work, with lots of meeting and stuff to do. But with discipline and good planning it should work out. The worst thing that could happen is that I miss one of my training days, but I have learned that If I am over stressed my training is just waist of time. Then Its better to rest, and continue the day after.

I just hope that Madde, gets well soon, this isn't as fun without her. She has had the worst of bad luck, so she is worth being heathy and achieving great results. She has a winner attitude and a winner mindset. Girl, everything is going to be alright! Together, thats how we are doing this.

Ironman Kalmar 2014

My muscles are starting to get defined due to my weight loss. I always have muscles you just can't see them... :-D

Breakfast, most important meal of the day

Nina gave me this, and I luv it. Going to live by it. Thanks dear friend <3 i="">

Even monkeys can keep their beat. It like someone up there is messing with me... :-D

Girl, you better get well soon, we have some fun to do, and I miss you when your not around.

Rejected as a spinning instructor

I know, I always blog on the weekend but its really been hard for me to write this week. I have been so excited about becoming a spinning instructor, I knew it was my fate. Well quess what? It isnt. Everything went so well and I have been fantasizing about my course and seeing myself in the instructor bike. 

They called me last Friday and informed me that I was soooo close to making it. "Well close isnt good enough in my world" We really liked you but you didnt make it all they way. My first thought, was  ".... them" But mature as I am I responded like a grown up. "Oh my, I was hoping so much" before I could continue sounding all grown up, they asked me if I wanted to do a spinning course and work on my techniques and holding my beat. Im like ... hell yes. (And again, I didnt actually use those words) 

I cant honestly give up knowing that they "think" I cant hold my beat? I am glad they wanted me so much that they put me in a couse, but I feel rejected and kinda failed. Its hard to tell the whole world, I am not good enough. Actually I hate it.

I have had a few days to think about the outcome, and I truley beleive that everything happens for a reason. It wasnt meant to be at this moment. Maybe someone or something is helping me stay focused on this years most important goal? Ironman Kalmar 2014 I am ready to rock..:-)

Well at least I still love spinning, last weekends 3 hour session

Maddes armpit.. 

Not as cool as I thought

The only time I eat snickers and enjoy it. 

Best training week ever and final interview

Sunday evening, feeling really happy. Just had two glasses of bubbles together with Christina, one of my newest friends, and her beautiful friends. She is one of those people that everyone wants as a friend... Intelligent, beautiful, funny and loyal.  She gives me so much energy and makes me feel special.

This last training week has been amazing. Last Saturday I did 195 minutes of spinning, followed by a Sunday with a 22K run. Monday rest and then 3 totally crazy training days with all of the distances adding up to a Half Ironman. I did it, and I did it very well. When I ended Thursday, it was like wow wow wow. Its really impressive how well my body has responded to all this training. I believe in me... a lot.. but its still like, I have to pinch my own arm to really understand. I don't look like an Ironman, I don't talk like one and my body is more of the size of a "Bullmamma" It's a Swedish expression for a mom who bakes a lot and you can tell it on her figure. Okey, I am slowly losing weight but I still have chubby on my tummy, but how cool isn't it to run faster than all of those skinny girls.... :-)

Rest on Friday and I had weightlifting on Saturday. I ate dinner at Maddes Saturday night, she is the best cook ever, and I ate soooooo much good food and candy ( I know, I quit eating candy weeks ago......eh.... not.. obviously.... I did quit... but started again.......) I had so much to eat I couldn't sleep... So I spent most of my planned sleep time watching Netflix. So this morning, or should I say this afternoon at10-ish ... I didn't want to go out in the snow slush rainy weather (I was damn tired). I forced myself out. Kicked my own ass, hard. I managed 8K in 45 minutes. Pretty good.. :-)

I also did my interview for the position as a spinning instructor this afternoon, the finals. It was kind of strange. I honestly don't know how it went. Felt more like I just talked and talked and talked and talked making no sense at all. How interesting can I be? I can still hear my own voice and constant babbling. Some questions came as a total surprise, even though I had though it through carefully. I felt like I was 17 again. You know when you really want something bad, and you kinda talk to much instead of keeping your cool.... I just have to hope for the best.

I like Friskis and Svettis, so I REALLY hope they liked me too, thats all I can hope for. What is meant to be is meant to be.


Madde, full focus and getting toned up

Like I said, she is the best cook.... This is heathy, but all that candy????

My punishment cauz I stuffed myself, couldn't sleep (Saturday night). Orange parts are when I am awake, Light blue, light sleep and dark blue deep sleep. (Maybe it was the late night coffee)

Last weekends 3 hour indoor cycling. Good music and good instructors

Love this Tee, Collect moments, not things.